JERLINE

Woke up early today to send b to the airport, he went to Phuket with ben for the week. How I wish I could take the time off to join them!

I've been thinking, maybe this is the best time to think about things, our relationship. He deserves this trip, away from all the stress in sg and away from all the problems we had in our r/s. It's not that I'm happy that he's not here, I missed him alot. I wonder if he does. Things have changed ever since that breakup. We will never be the same as before. The crack is there, no matter how much I try, there will still be a crack.

I always fail to see how fortunate I am to have gotten such a good bf. He has always been there for me, no matter what happens. I always fail to see how much he gave in to me, how much he cares for me. I took him for granted, I didn't care for him. I was so selfish and self-centered. He always put me in first place. I disappointed him.

I miss every single bit of him. How he always make me laugh with his childish side. How he always want me to cuddle him in my arms, how he hug me to sleep every night, how he used to kiss me on the forehead before he leave home for school.

Things have changed. I broke his heart, he gave me a chance. I didn't treasure it and I broke his heart again. Now that there's a shadow, he no longer care so much. I deserve it. I should have knew how much he gave in to me.

He taught me about life. He was there for me all these while. I lost a part of him. He will never treat me the same way. I still love him. He has become the most important person in my life.







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