It has been a long time since I last clubbed, ever since I started working 4 months ago, I haven't got the chance to hit the club. Last night, I got the "visa" from B to go to phuture with twinny, jamie, maddy, karen, yunni and shuhua :)

Went over to twinny's place after work, had a short nap and we prepared for the night. Cabbed over to whitesands to buy macs then headed down to phuture. The night was quite screwed actually, 2 of them got drunk even before we started dancing. And so we left the club for home without dancing at all, maybe like 5 mins of pushing here and there?

Stayed over at twinny's place for the night, then got up to breakfast made by twinny love <3
Now we're watching tv and wasted the afternoon away. Oh btw, today I took leave which I so regret -.- But at least I get to rest at home and I'm meeting mummy and brothers for dinner at Bugis later.

I'm gonna get myself a camera next week and that will be Canon G12!! =D
Miao already gotten her and I cant keep my hands of it! omg.. cant wait to get mine!

Finally taking a break from work, have been doing work since 9am til' now, skipped lunch and was munching on bread. The most hectic week of the month is when I have to do up the incentive report and it always last til' mid of the month. The second half of the month I will have loads of time to clear all the other work.

Anyway, b got back from Phuket last Friday and I don't think he had much fun. However, I'm glad that he went on this trip cos' it gave both of us time alone and think about things. Things between us are fine now. He even said that when he join SIA as a pilot, I won't have to work cos' he's able to take care of me. He always think that his wife should work and be independent. I think I found the best guy and I'm so not gonna let him go again.

On the other hand, Joy is back from her holiday and I bet she enjoyed herself! She bought lots of clothes! Roar! I also want leh -.- I need a getaway too! Working life is so tiring but I would rather work then study. Still enjoying my life right now.

Ok, break is over! Gotta get my arse back to work! :)


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Working life is pretty mundane, doing the same old things everyday at work. I'm into the 4th month of my working life and I'm kinda used to it already. However, I still have not gotten rid of my bad habit of "skipping" work especially when you have 14 days of annual leave. It's not helping at all.

Am trying to save up a sum of money so I can help to lessen my mum's burden and also to save up for the future. I dunno what will my future be like, we just have take one step at a time. Love life has been quite fucked up, I totally screwed up my love life but I thank god for an understanding boyfriend. He's already on the verge of giving up, but somehow I know there's something between us that's holding him back. I don't wish for this love to end. This has been the best love so far. I want to treasure it again. I pray for our love to last forever.

Woke up early today to send b to the airport, he went to Phuket with ben for the week. How I wish I could take the time off to join them!

I've been thinking, maybe this is the best time to think about things, our relationship. He deserves this trip, away from all the stress in sg and away from all the problems we had in our r/s. It's not that I'm happy that he's not here, I missed him alot. I wonder if he does. Things have changed ever since that breakup. We will never be the same as before. The crack is there, no matter how much I try, there will still be a crack.

I always fail to see how fortunate I am to have gotten such a good bf. He has always been there for me, no matter what happens. I always fail to see how much he gave in to me, how much he cares for me. I took him for granted, I didn't care for him. I was so selfish and self-centered. He always put me in first place. I disappointed him.

I miss every single bit of him. How he always make me laugh with his childish side. How he always want me to cuddle him in my arms, how he hug me to sleep every night, how he used to kiss me on the forehead before he leave home for school.

Things have changed. I broke his heart, he gave me a chance. I didn't treasure it and I broke his heart again. Now that there's a shadow, he no longer care so much. I deserve it. I should have knew how much he gave in to me.

He taught me about life. He was there for me all these while. I lost a part of him. He will never treat me the same way. I still love him. He has become the most important person in my life.







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